vincent ho's fav pharse--->chochang is so chio..chochang is so chio..
lol..dam..im addicted to comics..me nwo reading a series...tsubasa..quite nice..bout this guy and girl were childhood buddies...den she lost her memory..so he had to sacrifice the memories of them being together to save her life..awww.i was like..hmm.wtf.. i won't ever allow the person i treasure the most to forget bout me..but its concerning her life..so..why not..i can do anything for that person's life at least..well..touching..haha...stupid guy..go rent rave comics..cannot read finish le lor..haha...i love reading comics le..woot..woot..today read 3 books..argh..so fast $3 gone le

well..u can say that i don't understand u..i dun know u..i am selfish..im self centred...truth is i am..so im not denying it..its just that..ur every action..i don;t really know what u are up to..what will u do next..will u ever betray me like what u did to some1..i dun even know if i gained ur trust..i dun even know if u treat me as a friend i dun even know if u hate me like hell and juz acting in ront of me..i really..don't know..now i've stop my love sickness..its better for alot of people especially her..ive been embarrassing her thx to that..i knew what i did wrong..i tried to ammend..well..i dunno..its juz 1 phrase..i really dun understand u..u are a person with lots of mask..and i dunno which is the real mask in u...is it that kind guy who listens to people problems and tell em whats right whats wrong..or is it a person who wanna drain secret out and tell some1 he trust..for that some1s benefit?i really dunno..im really..really confused..can;t blame me either

well..i agree its ur life anyway..so i will not interupt it or wad so ever..its ur choice..i can;t control u like how people control me..u are not indecisive like what i am now..

i kept reading some1's blog..
well...i read every1s blog..but his blog..hmm..wanna comment bout it...
y do u complain u are lonely and all tt when u already said..
u are self-centred..u can't act..
actually..things can't always be what u want them to be....
its not really good to avoid them..its sometimes better to accept them..
maybe when u understand..it won't be so bad after..being self-centred will only harm urself..if u dun wanna be round like the earth and decides to be square instead..u are odd..and people..will keep going without ya..kk..enough of this person..

now to another person..lol..lets say..err..a girl..a little 1...haha..i dunno she reads me blog 1..until some1 told me..haha..juz wanna tell her something..i read the message u sent me during september..intersting..don't u think..maybe now u'll know y im doing this..kk..nth le...cya

yesterday night..i think..i indirectly confessed..hmm..even though i think she knew it all along and juz faking..her reaction was like..cool..no really shock..so maybe..life will go on as normal...i now scared she'll avoid me..oh gosh..hope what i did yesterday..will not let me regret..well...hmmm...on my last birthday..some1 told me something bout her..i dunno if its true or not..well..does it really depend on me??uhh?

went ta watch harry potter with some shooting guys..ok lar e show...but not really according to e book..lacks info.. well...theres action..at least we get to see the "boss"..voldemort..haha..den e tournament..woot..quite good action... abit of romance... but dunno come out from where...hermione...ok la..quite chio..the cho change..shes ok..shes chio sia..really..and she looks mature..maybe cuz im racist...i like chinese more than other races..haha..dunno y..cedric..hmm..cool..hes quite handsome..for once i said a guy handsome..haha..woot..ron..something special lies in him..hes like some1 i know in real life..who is coward..and...well..dun dare to express himself...jealous of everything and assume..haix..sian...haha..thats all..woot..shld watch ba..this the only movie that shows..teenage love..haha

Zzzz..im running out of games..haha..so time ta blog..hmm..nth much happened today..juz play play play..den liddat lor... not smsing some1 =X..i suddenly scared to sms her le..maybe 2morrow i try to sms her..dun wanna lose contact with her wor..holidays--->the time for me to think and think and think..i always think bout alot of stuff always..well..thats me..if i stare into space means im thinking bout something..and not peeping at ya!!haha...no offence..woot..i suddenly asked myself this question..wads love..i thought of it..this is what i think..love may not always be lead to some sexual acts like kissing and stuff..i feel that u can express it without action..maybe some words may help..but ur tone and how serious u are..really shows how much u love a person..hmm..argh talking crap..lol..well..maybe that person out there knows that i love her..but she dunno how much i do..thing is..i have to courage to tell her how much..im scared..scared of rejection...scared..scared that the world will change becuz of the three words..maybe e only way of showing her how much i love her is to tell her face to face..well..well..i dun dare..won;t u find it wierd..suddenly..1 asshole came out and suddenly say..hey..i love u..lol..if i was that person..i would like..wth.....is he joking or what..so i dunno how e helll to tell her..so i have to cowardly write all my feelings in this..err..blog?????haha...

now bout shooting..wad i think..i shld NOT be vice-captain at all..im juz a useless asshole who slacks..abuses authority...well..thats true..i've got no leadership..i hum ji..dun dare speak up...im not even fit to be..a leader of anything..sian..mr choo gone..things changed..heard we have to pay for our cca shirts next year..our current shooting teacher..knows almost nothing about shooting..wheres our gas cylinder charge...so long never come..wheres our new rifle and pistol..choo said hes buying more..the sexist issue seems to be ok le..haha..k lar..nth to say le..best wishes all..woot..

hmmm..maybe everyones right..im indeed a fuking love psycho..well...i got no comments..juz tt im pissed..totally..now i dun dare to sms her..well...only today..cuz..haix...something bad happened..to me..so who cares..its me anyway..no1 cares bout me..y not i be self centred and think im e centre of attention..think im god..think im the creator..to change everything tt does not appeal to me...well..i dunno...i think im already doing tt..self pity...y can't i not think of all those unhappy things for once...y can't i even have a friend who tells me straight what im wrong..well..i do have some1....khee ern..well..he told me e wrong stuff..directly to me..and not givin me any embarrasment to e public..i did not like it at 1st..but..i soon realised my mistake and change..its cuz of him..that i changed...to a not so self-centred person..well..i admit im still selfish...not even knowing y..she changed so much to me..i feel now..im not suitted for her..some1 else is..im selfish..i can't let go..now..i expect more..i still want her....and..e reason y i "hate" lil girl..well..i dun really hate her..its juz tt..im shocked..woo..sure i am..she changed from some reason..i was chatting on msn 1 day..den she told me some woah!!unbelievable stuff..well..hmm...think sia..u happy now??u think u are not acting?? u know who really cares and who dun?? i know i dunno what u're thinking...if u really wanna know y..talk to me privately..somethings can't be said here..woot..nth to say le..cyaz

sianz..suddenly..i feel so guilty of lyk...making her embarrassed..from everything i done...hmmm..i hope u'll forgive me..well..den i dunno how to express me love to ya..wahahah..k..holidays..i cannot remember my spelling -_-..so.. hmm..i duno...maybe..its time for u to tell me e truth and everything..its time for u to tell me yes or no..i don't mind..if its a yes..so be it..if its a no..so be it..i juz..wanna know....for e last time..if its a yes..i would treasure e time i haf with u..not some lame 3 days thingy again..i promise..well..if its a no..den i'll treasure ya as a friend..and not let some misunderstandings break us up again..i don't want our friendship to be like a building without a good foundation..which is going to collapse anytime..hmm..well.....i think..thats all i wanna say...so now..don't hide anything from me k?if u don't like anything bout me..juz tell me..i won't mind...i had never felt this for a lifetime..i really really cannot lose u now..i juz can't...it seems..i will miss u badly next year..not able to see u everyday...hurts me silently...well...i have to try to endure den....nth to say le...cya ppls............................................................................................................woot..help me tag me board....or any freaking comments u have..good or bad..don't mind..haha

ok..this post is juz for that some1..hmm..listen to this song..thats how i feel now..hmmm..let me like explain..without u..life is totally different for me..and i can do anything juz for u...woot..mushy =PP...kk..serious..ever since i saw u durin sec1..hmm..i see something special..i dunno whats it..well..i liked u more as i mixed with ya..that time..i wasn't very good to e guys..but i was sorta close to ya..i regretted...for givin u up juz for my own selfish reason..of not being e odd 1 out.. well..now its serious..i really can sacrifice anything for u..other people i liked before were untrue..u are e one i liked all along..i am sorry that im fickle..i juz can't tell u face to face that i really love u..so i have to timidly come here...well..e guys are brave while i am not..thats e difference..i am weak..very weak..a complete loser..well..that 3 days..i totally useless..i wanna go back to that time..i show u how i really felt..i wish u give me a chance..so that i can prove who i am..err.. i love u...alot..will ya accept me this once..i really am serious..i can give up anything for ya now..even if u want the moon..i will give u..i will not let u get hurt or get harmed..pls give me a chance to show myself..and..not admit i am darkeclipse..if u give me a chance..my blog will change..my nick will change....my blog song would change...

came back from camp...and chalet..
camp...cool...fun..haha..
well..lets start from 1st day..my birthday...haha..hmm..
thought some1 forgot bout my birthday..but she smsed me..haha..
i sent something....wrong..cuz i thought i was dreaming bout it..haha
kk..in sch..1st game..powerball..i ji siao darius..lol
fun la...den after that..human chess cancelled...cuz jasmine slacking..lol
no la...err cuz dam troublesome ma...den.. we go dinner i think.. haha..
den..after candle light soccer.. all e groups go chiong at group 2..cuz.. i think alladin there...hmm..lol..she chio mehz!!!LOL
after candle light soccer..woot..my game..water game..or maybe water fight..every1 wet...never zao2 keng1..cuz every1 in red..haha..den...ee mason dun let ppl pour at him..lol..
my birthday present from shooting...a plastic bag of water from each person..LOL
kk..den..go bathe and sleep..den johnaton act like a fool ah..lol...lao gao lao gao..den dance here dance there..
den every1 ji siao him..den go sleep sleep...in 2t1 class room..woot..den ji siao lor...i dam ji siao ah..dun wanna say what happened..den next day le..
woot..packed up go eat breakfast..
choir breakfast so nice...beehoon all that.. us..bread..lol...aiya nvm la..
den...go east coast...to canoe..woot...skip all e boring part...den i partner with yuqing..woot..i dunno how to canoe..so we always go off course..haha..yuqing keep saying me..i have to keep quiet..hehe..den we bathe lor..waaa..hot water bath sia..so nice...den made our tents..and sleep..poor group 8 tent....their tent like gonna collapse anytime..
last day..woot..so fast sia..woke up..came back ta sch..clean our tents...rock climbing..den..err...abseiling..shld see darius..woot..lol..rock climbing i ji siao..so long there... den i suddenly under alladin....den she say i pervert..-_-..lol...kk..den..this song u hearing now..is the song we keep listening during camp..lol..it has a special meaning to me...how i feel towards her
woot..k thats all for camp..
chalet..nth much..
checked in..played arcade...bbq...
bbq..well..i was helping..waa so cold lor.."cold"..haha..
den err...liddat la..alot of stuff not cooked..hehe..meaning..half cooked..
den here some1 comes..den all e guys ji siao..woot..
den she left...i wanna like walk her out cuz got gangsters around...heard her father coming..so...never le lor..lol..den vincent tam JI SIAO..haha..
den cannot sleep..lol..den sleep le..
next morning...woot..vincent tam loves to sleep..haha...den later..yiyong left..den at night we had pizza...and more people left..den.. we went for night walk..creepy things happened..haha..dun wanna say..den all of us go to e pool..to soak our legs in water..haha..den liddat go sleep le..
den they say i creepy..i snore and i sleep with half of my eyes opened..lol..
hehe..continue what i wanna say to her in my next post..lol..